reasons i shouldn't be alive.

a drunk.
fat.
one boob is bigger than other.
incapable of loving.
angry. incapable of overcoming anger.
can't have a relationship with mom.

Don't fucking tell me I can. Because I can't. She's dead. Assholes.

dad is a crazy person.

I love my brother.

i have friends. but they aren't friends.

I have two personalities.
they are very different.
the pounding of death is in my ear.
It calls me at night.
I am sick.
no end in sight.