Monday, July 15, 2013

Poetry in Schizoid Narratives

Motherfucking crawling on a dirty, dirty dirty dirty ground, like in a concrete jungle, you gotta dig nails deep into concrete, like you don't know, like you don't know, fuck that sounds like rhytm, like I don't like anything soft, I like hard nails, I like to die, I like dying, I like dying, I like dying, I like dying, I like trying to die, that's what I like, I like trying to die, that's what I like, I like trying to die, that's what I like, I like trying to die, that's what I like, I like trying to die that's what I like, trying to die, what I like, trying to die, that's what it's like, like trying to fly, except you fail and die, and fail to die, and fail to try is when you fail to try to try to try fail and try , that way we all die, in the end we all die, in the end we all die, fail to die, is when you fail to die, is when you fail to to die when you fail to die , when you fail to die, when you fail to die,

I like to try to fail to die, I like to try when I fail I die, I like to die when I fail I try, when I fail I try, when i try i die, when i fail I try, to die is to die is to die is to die is to die is to try to die die die die die die die die die die? Die? Die? Die? Die??? DIe? Die? Die, Dide, didos, diddddddddI die? I died once and then I died again, and then i tried to do it again and again, and i tried and I did it , i did it again and I tried and i did it and i did it again, i tried and i did it and i did it again, i tried, and i tried, and i tried and i was trapped in a horrible place, how did i get here i tried to fly and I didn't and died, and I didn't and died, and i tried and i did it, i did it - i died. i tried and i did it, i did it - i died. i tried and i did it - i did it and died, i tried it and did it, i did it and died, i cried a little, i did it and died, it felt really good, i did it and died, i want to die and forget what i did, i did it to die, and forgot why i did - i did it to die, i died and forgot. i did it to die and did it - forgot. i tried and i did it - i did it to die. i died and i felt it somewhere inside. i felt a stir i felt it inside. i felt it inside, i tried it and did it , i felt it and died. i tried and i did it, i tried it - i died. i tried and i did it, i felt it and died. i tried and i felt it, i felt it and died. i tried and i felt it, i felt it and died. i tried and i felt it i felt it and died, i tried and i felt it, i did it and died. i tried and i find it way too interesting to find, i find that i felt it, i dealt the last time, to a death navigator, a death navigator that came and he tried, to fuck me in the head, in the head til i died. i died and i felt it, i felt it inside, he fucked me and fucked me and i felt like i died. i felt like i died when he felt me inside, i find that he felt me, he felt me inside, i find that he felt me i  felt him inside, i find that he felt me i felt him inside, i find that he felt me i felt him in side, i find that he felt me i find it inside, i find that i felt a small white flower inside, i find that i felt a small flower inside i find a bit died, i died. fuck you. i died. i find that i felt a small fucker inside, i find that i died. fuck you, fuck fuck yfuckjffuck fuck fuck fuck funnnnnnn to die. i did like to die, i felt like i died, i like to try, oh no. running out of juice. he ate it all. he ate my soul. he ate it so much, hge liked to tuouccjchcv. he touched me inside, he liked to fuck me inside and out, he liked to fuck me inside and out. he liked to touch me inside and out, he liked to touch me inside and out, he liked to touch me inside and out, he liked to touch me inside and out, he liked to touch me inside and out, he liked to touch me inside and out, he liked to touch me and touch me inside and out and i like to touch him inside and down, and long and out, and fuck him like he fucked me i'd like to fuck this, i died, i felt like i want like i felt like i want i felt i died i die die die die felt fuck die. felt like fuck like die like fuck what fuck the the he fuck die try like cunt fuck like lick the fuck is try like died, like i did when he fucked, yeah, he did what the fucked up so he did so he fucked up so fucked up like what? fuck ha ha, like fuck that , this, what? fuck that, fuck this, fuck what up the shit, cunt, what , ha that's funny, gotta like the fucking guy, he fucked me like he fucked every other fucker like he fucked like other fuckers, white knuckle it, he liked to fuck, he liked to fuck, and he liked to fuck me more than her, and she was my mom, ha ha ha ha ah ha ha Ah HA! a-HA! a-HA! Ah, ah, ah, ah, ah oh, oh ohoooooooooooooo Oh, what the hoo-ha, i oh , who? what? Why, when??? oh yeah, there. Ha! Duh. Oh yeah. Luck! Oh what, the fuck? What. The fuck? Yuck. Oh god, yeah? What? Ha!, That's a ton of fuck. ing. Right there. Here, I swear, he fucked me right there, where? Give me that doll, i point to the spot that he touched me. I tell you, i like it, and it's kinda weird. to like something so wrong, i didn't want it to happen , i swear. I was four, or five. i can't remember well. it's like looking at a picture and trying to de-pixalate the who-what-where. like what? How can you tell what is what on a piece of paper. i tell you i think i cried a little after he left, i cried like a little bitch after he left and i felt like i had died and a little white ghost leaked out of my nostril! Ha, you like that? How you like that. How you like that for a visual? You like al ittle white snot-ghost? Ha ha ha. A little white snot ghost like a little pixelated ghost. Like from the Pokemanz gamez ihaszzzz noobszzz and internet catzzzzzz, ha ha ha, how you like that? 21st century scumbad, fucker, gettin' fucked my theri daddfdfdfdfd he said that i worshipped the fucking, the father-fucking just kidding. no such thing, get fucked, you mother. fuck. father. fat-her. the father was a fat-her. Ha! So fuck-him. How you like that for some word-play, fucking with you is like turd-play, Ha! How you like that for some assinine word-play, or what you are trying to ........ oh god, what you doing? What you doing? What are you doing, sticking that knife in my ear? You don't like my voice? You don't want me to hear you? Mother fucker? How was I born like this? You say i was born with my brain all fucked up? You know what? Am I supposed to feel insulted about anything? Just go fucking die. go fucking die, oh fuck you fuck you , no you fuck fuck you fuck DIE go die and fuck a dfjaldkfja;lkjfd just kidding !!!! I'm just kid. I am just a kid with a ....... clue?